SUICIDE OF A WOMAN
February, 1995 – London
Ayad Gharbawi
Killing
Your only
Haunted eye
And those that witnessed
How frail
You are
Yawn
O! How vile Man is!
And if hell
Were to breathe
So within
Your failing language
Yet again
Then, understand
That your ending truths
Within your faltering self
Is nearing.
How much you did suffer
Can ever a Man guess?
Or feel?
Just as you succumb now
I tell you,
No one can
Or will
Feel for you
Sweet.
PANIC
August 27, 1993 – London
You can tremble
In these here
This final
Unknown twist
In your life where
An avalanche of fear
Is zooming on you
With a certainty fearful.
Your confused eyes
Feeling that pain
Again
Furiously interacting
Within and outside
Frightening yourself
So deep
Back
Into your solitary
Self of helplessness.
Unable to understand
Any longer
The hatreds fuming
In your life
And
Occupying your
Living spirit
To death.
LIVES OF DISTRESSING ANARCHY
December 7, 1989 - London
Tell the children aching for meaning
The tremors frightening
The work numbing in their eyes blurred, shrivelled
Where starvations are the polite norm
No one else could dictate the times
In the hopes passing by and receding beyond reach
I spoke of sceneries mosaic
Unbroken somehow
Where the times appealed unto us for serious change
Where meanings sincere searched for our whereabouts
Where prisoners of war pleaded for our consciousness cosmic
Where ragged children dying cried tears that were bleeding
blood
Save our flooded homes and lives
The sun cries for the twilight of the evening
You must have understood the images you felt
Or were your hopes also drowned by the manic floods within
our minds?
And you were seriously regarded as beautiful?
What minds did speak to you?
And what did your upbringing mean to you
And what did your education mean to you
What do you recall from your past
Not much, I know
Remember the butchered ones!
Remember the sorrowful ones!
Crying quietly and unheard still
The night beckons us to a liberating death
A death that will unite us all
Nothing will matter
Because only
The criminals and the illiterate judges matter
On this earth.
